Monday, September 20, 2010

Living in Uncertainty

I go to sleep tonight wondering if I'll be able to wake up tomorrow.
I can't promise You much, can I?
If You wake me, I'll waiver.
But I can offer You this: I want to feel You endlessly and constantly.
Slowly I am starting to fall in love with Your love.
I'm trying my best with Your help.
No promises yet.
It's coming along...
One day I will wake up knowing that I belong to the Guru and the Guru belongs to me. For now I wonder and I most definately wander.

Saturday, September 18, 2010


Silly me...
I always fall in love with those who don't completely love me back.
Friends that never give me the time of day...
Men that I don't even have a chance with...
Family that can't always be there...
All I wanted was a little attention.
I guess its my fault in a way; I fell in love with the wrong person, the wrong people.
He's the one person thats always been there and I can say that with complete conviction since He's never left me for another even though I've cheated Him many many many times.
He's the only one who truly loves me back, probably even more than I know.
I want to be drenched in You...I want to commit to You fully and always but I don't know how.
I just...don't know how.