Telephone

Ring Ring Ring? Hello?
I've dialed Your number my love, will You answer?
The phone is ringing with the tone of Your name...waheguru waheguru waheguru....
There are many callers...yet there's no call waiting...the line never cuts...there's no static...no dead phone...it is as clear as clear can be...
I've made the call to You....when You answered my heart and soul vibrated with Your intensity...
Today I send out some of Your frequencies to the world...someone who may need it right now...someone who feels disconnected from the line....or doesn't own a decent phone...or someone with a crappy phone plan.
Hang in there...your call will be answered shortly...

Yearning

My eyes are wet, they yearn to behold Your image.
Please give me another chance, after the many chances You've given me.
Your brides enjoy Your company, please give me a second of Your valuable time, my heart aches without You.
I beg like a child, however I am as stubborn as a child, grace me with Your understanding.
I reach out my hand...I wait for You to grab it so I can get out of this deep dark pit. I wait for Your warm embrace.
My love, dont forget me no matter how much I forget You. How could I live without Your constant care. Your care is what soothes me.
Care for me always so that I may not stray too far away.
I am grateful to You.
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Off to India for a month...hope to have a good experience. I'll miss you all.

Pick and choose.

You wear religious robes, have taken the nectar, practice your sadhnaa daily...
You read many books, gather information from many resources, thinking of yourself as some specialist...
You've been blessed to be a part of the five, you've instructed and warned others of the perils...
Yet you indulge yourself and deny when called out on it.
So then what is the use of ridiculing the world? What is the use of making others feel worthless and Godless?
Tell me...where is YOUR love? Quit asking me where mine went.
You've risen to the highest level but sadly your conceit remains.
You can dish it but you can never take it.
I wish your heart was pure, you cant simply pick and choose...one day to wake up and be at your spiritual heights...the next to abandon it...and then decide that there is nothing wrong with that.
Contrary to your popular belief, you cannot have your cake and eat it too.
I'm sorry but my heart has been shattered...and many hearts who you've foul mouthed and ridiculed.
So then it comes down to this...aapai beej aapai hee khaahu

Understood.

"In this world I have seen love to be false"
Shabad by Guru Tegh Bahadur Sahib Jee
While questioning whether to sing this shabad or not, I thought to myself...have I actually experienced this? Have I actually seen love to be false? Do friends, relatives and even spouses just care about their own happiness?
Then...I realized the truth. I was rejected by my best friend and rejected by my parents all in one day. Now I know...I know that everyone says "Mine mine" but funny thing is, nothing goes along in the end. My foolish mind never listens, perhaps it never will.
Putting so much effort into recieving false love and giving false love...what use is it if you were to belong to the Guru?
So when is the day that I love the Guru? When is that moment where He resides in me and never leaves?
When will I be everything that everyone wants me to be? When will I be wanted?
My stupid questions could go on for ages. Excuse me.

Places Everyone!

What a grand show! The director has placed His actors on the world ocean's stage.
He wrote the script, all the lines are ready for execution.
Some characters are benevolent while others villainous.
Some are attached to falseness, others are caught up in the limelight and the fame.
Some are lovers....true lovers are the greatest actors of all time. They leave their mark and are remembered forever.
We are all bound by this script, whatever He has written is what is played out.
How fascinating Waheguru is!
Places everyone! Cue the lights, the show is about to begin!

The Fairest Trade

If only there was a being who could bring me closer to my Guru. I would sell everything to them. I would offer every part of me to them. As much as I could give, I would.
Please come quick...
Grab my hand and pull me toward the path which is as fine as a strand of hair and sharper than the edges of a sword.
I'm waiting...the clock is ticking...

The Right Way to Sin

Kaam-a burning desire to be near to the Lord
Krodh-fight a constant battle with your mind
Lobh-be as greedy as you want with the Lord's name
Moh-be attached to the Guru's feet
Hunkaar-recognize that you are the embodiment of the divine light