Waheguru loves all. It might seem like when you get knocked down, kicked around, and fall but struggle to get up that you're totally worthless, useless, and no one could care less about you. The Guru puts you through the toughest times so that you come out stronger. Thieves, adulterers, and hardcore sinners, what would He have to do with these people (of course if they haven't listened to him and continue to drown)? Your His child, He knocks you down with the intention of love...seems odd but very much true.
suth aparaadhh karath hai jaethae
As many mistakes as the son commits,
jananee cheeth n raakhas thaethae 1
his mother does not hold them against him in her mind. 1
raameeaa ho baarik thaeraa
O Lord, I am Your child.
kaahae n kha(n)ddas avagan maeraa 1 rehaao
Why not destroy my sins? 1Pause
jae ath krop karae kar dhhaaeiaa
If the son, in anger, runs away,
thaa bhee cheeth n raakhas maaeiaa 2
even then, his mother does not hold it against him in her mind. 2
chi(n)th bhavan man pariou hamaaraa
My mind has fallen into the whirlpool of anxiety.
naam binaa kaisae outharas paaraa 3
Without the Naam, how can I cross over to the other side? 3
dhaehi bimal math sadhaa sareeraa
Please, bless my body with pure and lasting understanding, Lord;
sehaj sehaj gun ravai kabeeraa 4 3 12
in peace and poise, Kabeer chants the Praises of the Lord. 4 3 12
Aaahhh the whirlpool of anxiety due to the lack of naam...that in itself is a whole other post.
"New years resolution":
-No matter how hard I get beat and fall into a pit of utter depression and anxiety, I will try to realize how lucky I am to have a being that cares for me as much as He does, even when I stupidly think He doesn't.
I'm not perfect because if I was, I wouldn't need Guru, none of us would.
Regretably, I cannot take away the hurt I've caused and continue to cause to others. My ardaas is that I'm forgiven and that the cycle of doubt and wandering ends.
I wish I could love like Waheguru.