Monday, June 28, 2010

Pick and choose.

You wear religious robes, have taken the nectar, practice your sadhnaa daily...
You read many books, gather information from many resources, thinking of yourself as some specialist...
You've been blessed to be a part of the five, you've instructed and warned others of the perils...
Yet you indulge yourself and deny when called out on it.
So then what is the use of ridiculing the world? What is the use of making others feel worthless and Godless?
Tell me...where is YOUR love? Quit asking me where mine went.
You've risen to the highest level but sadly your conceit remains.
You can dish it but you can never take it.
I wish your heart was pure, you cant simply pick and day to wake up and be at your spiritual heights...the next to abandon it...and then decide that there is nothing wrong with that.
Contrary to your popular belief, you cannot have your cake and eat it too.
I'm sorry but my heart has been shattered...and many hearts who you've foul mouthed and ridiculed.
So then it comes down to this...aapai beej aapai hee khaahu

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


"In this world I have seen love to be false"
Shabad by Guru Tegh Bahadur Sahib Jee
While questioning whether to sing this shabad or not, I thought to myself...have I actually experienced this? Have I actually seen love to be false? Do friends, relatives and even spouses just care about their own happiness?
Then...I realized the truth. I was rejected by my best friend and rejected by my parents all in one day. Now I know...I know that everyone says "Mine mine" but funny thing is, nothing goes along in the end. My foolish mind never listens, perhaps it never will.
Putting so much effort into recieving false love and giving false love...what use is it if you were to belong to the Guru?
So when is the day that I love the Guru? When is that moment where He resides in me and never leaves?
When will I be everything that everyone wants me to be? When will I be wanted?
My stupid questions could go on for ages. Excuse me.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Places Everyone!

What a grand show! The director has placed His actors on the world ocean's stage.
He wrote the script, all the lines are ready for execution.
Some characters are benevolent while others villainous.
Some are attached to falseness, others are caught up in the limelight and the fame.
Some are lovers....true lovers are the greatest actors of all time. They leave their mark and are remembered forever.
We are all bound by this script, whatever He has written is what is played out.
How fascinating Waheguru is!
Places everyone! Cue the lights, the show is about to begin!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The Fairest Trade

If only there was a being who could bring me closer to my Guru. I would sell everything to them. I would offer every part of me to them. As much as I could give, I would.
Please come quick...
Grab my hand and pull me toward the path which is as fine as a strand of hair and sharper than the edges of a sword.
I'm waiting...the clock is ticking...

Thursday, June 3, 2010

The Right Way to Sin

Kaam-a burning desire to be near to the Lord
Krodh-fight a constant battle with your mind
Lobh-be as greedy as you want with the Lord's name
Moh-be attached to the Guru's feet
Hunkaar-recognize that you are the embodiment of the divine light

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

When Will My Turn Come?

They look so beautiful with their husband. They enjoy His company, never wandering away from Him. He receives them with a loving embrace. They lay upon His comfy bed. They belong to Him and He belongs to them. There is no distinction. There is just bliss. Anand.
So there I stand, on the other side. I am worthless, disheveled and dishonored. I have nothing to offer to my husband. I've wandered far away and I am swallowed up by the deep dark ocean. My life is meaningless without my Beloved yet I can't reach Him. What will it take? What must I do? My heart is shattering, my soul is stinging, my mind has gone crazy. Oh sanity, come back to me. Run away thieves so that my Beloved will come see me!